Filling in the blanks!

Hello everyone! 

I haven't posted very much as you see from my first four posts... but that will change now! I am on day 5 of the protocol and have had very successful results. I will reenact the past week for you and hopefully you will smile a bit because it was like an "I Love Lucy" moment. 

I have finally settled in to being back at home and finally said that if I am ever going to start, this is the time! I was very nervous. First to inject something into my body was certainly out of my realm of comprehension and secondly, I am nervous that this would be the true test of courage to finally take this step to losing the weight I have loathed for sooo long! Maybe I was hiding behind the weight as a way to stay in the "victim" mode. 

Anyway, I am afraid of screwing up, so I read the directions for mixing maybe 100 times and called a friend to ask her a million questions about how to mix the HcG. I felt very odd sitting at my counter mixing these little vials together. I was so nervous the area wasn't sterile enough so I scrubbed the mixing area like a maniac. Had lots of trouble with withdrawing the the Bacteriostatic water from the vial. So I had to keep going back to withdraw a little more, then I thought I had contaminated the needle, so I had to use a second needle. Then I was worried that I had calculated wrong and my mixture was not mixed right. I called my friend back again and by this time she must have been rolling her eyes and thinking I was a real idiot. 

So after what seemed like hours, I finally got comfortable with my HcG and made the decision to start the next day. I was emotionally drained! So next day was the first day of the week and the first injection day and load. FIRST INJECTION!! Oh no... more needles!!! Oh no. I guess this was D-Day for me. No turning back. So once again I sterilize the environment. Take out my injection needle and the little bottle from the refrigerator. Just touching the bottle of HcG was enough to throw me over the edge. But today was the day. 

Ahhh, thank goodness this was not the fiasco that I had the day before. I did hesitate a bit but once the small needle was in, I was okay. So I bet you all are dying for the results seeing I am a few day behind in posting. 

Day one and two load days were okay. I laugh because as soon as I was given permission to eat everything, all of a sudden I got picky to what I wanted to eat. I guess it is more a case of everyday I tell myself how bad I am for eating and drinking everything and now someone is telling me you definitely need to eat a ton. Your mind can play some pretty mean tricks on you and I really saw how the self talk has been my worst enemy for sooo many years. 

Day three was the true test of strength. I know how I would have felt like if I was on this type of low calorie diet without HcG, which would have been simply awful.  On the HcG, my experience was very good considering that 500 calories was normally late afternoon snack amount. I stayed true to the protocol diet and basically had a slight headache for a portion of the day. Drank tea in the mid afternoon when normally I would be searching the pantry for a snack and then I went to bed exceptionally early due to fear. I thought that if anything, if I am sleeping, I won't be thinking about food any longer. It worked!! Got up feeling pretty good and preceded to follow the diet for the next 3 days. 

That's where I am today. Day four and well on my way to losing. Now for the big reveal...

Day 1: 183.5 lbs  (load day)

Day 2: 183.5 lbs (load day)

Day 3: 184.0 lbs (VLCD day)

Day 4: 181.5 lbs (VLCD day)

Day 5  175.5 lbs (VLCD day)

Day 6 174  lbs (VLCD day)

As you can see, I have had some amazing results to date. I will admit that I am skeptical about my scale being 100 % accurate and I don't get the .2, .4, etc readings. So today I am going out to purchase a good quality scale and I will let you all know if I have been deluding myself into thinking that this weight is dropping off of me or if the scale is just trying to play games with my head. I did take beginning measurements but they are sooo bad, I am going to not post them until I take new measurements at the end of this cycle. I will post the old and the new together and hopefully the progress will be enough to smile about. 

I promise to post on a regular bases now. And I will also let you know what my NEW scale reads tomorrow.

Best to all!

HPG